Sex
Hmmm.....emotional masochist. I guess I have thought of the fact that she loves being choked and fucked. Would I be able to stop once she passes out? I could just imagine fucking her real good and seeing her face turn dark red as my hands wrap around her neck. That vein that pops out on her forhead straining as her face starts to turn purple. Now her body is on survival mode and gives one last reaction to free herself. This always happens, where her hands come up and hit my arms. Must be a reflex of some sort. Then she goes limp. Now what are my options? Let go, so she can let out a gasp and breathe in some air? Hold on for a few more seconds, while squeezing a little harder around this fucking sluts neck. That is the dilema ahead. Will have to remember no choking when we have sex. Hopefully we wont be wasted.
Maybe that is why Nevada whom has ties with her (my ex) always makes me feel liking choking the shit out of her. We had sex tonight and that is one thing I kept thinking of. Choke her, choke her, choke her. She can't totally free herself to do it. So it doesn't appeal to me with her. If the other person can't get off on it, then it is no good to me.
Is there two sides to me? Feel very mean and unemotional right now. Tonight I felt like the rough, hard, biting, choking, scratching sex...so that is Nevada. Colorado is the sweet pleasing but control her sex thing. D C is ..............not sure yet. One thing she likes, correction loves is the rough sex. I mean slap her and make her ears ring. The first time she told me to hit her / slap her was a playful full hand light hit. Then once I found out what she wanted the last slap left her ears ringing and pussy exploding all over my dick. That almost freaked me out, but I sure did cum deep into her pussy! What a bunch of fucking freaks! ha ha ha.
My ex......need to get over that lying piece of crap. To this day she lies to me and unbeknown to her , I know! We had wild drawn out bouts of sex and what she started to crave was quickies! Sex started to become too much and she would tell me if we couldn't do it in 10 - 15 minutes then we can't do it tonight...she was too tired. =( Maybe this is all the better for us. I started to feel unwanted. I wanted her and loved her more than anything but what do you do when you lay in bed and she turns her back to you? There were no more deep kisses, no falling asleep in each other's arms. Then she tells me I drove her away, drove her to cheat! Now that I have been ignoring her and getting her out of my mind she is trying to come back. Says she can't get fucked like she used to. She never wanted it when we were married and now she wants my attention again. I refuse to let her back into my life. Sex would be great but I am afraid of my feelings for her may come back..........well they are still there.
Maybe that is why Nevada whom has ties with her (my ex) always makes me feel liking choking the shit out of her. We had sex tonight and that is one thing I kept thinking of. Choke her, choke her, choke her. She can't totally free herself to do it. So it doesn't appeal to me with her. If the other person can't get off on it, then it is no good to me.
Is there two sides to me? Feel very mean and unemotional right now. Tonight I felt like the rough, hard, biting, choking, scratching sex...so that is Nevada. Colorado is the sweet pleasing but control her sex thing. D C is ..............not sure yet. One thing she likes, correction loves is the rough sex. I mean slap her and make her ears ring. The first time she told me to hit her / slap her was a playful full hand light hit. Then once I found out what she wanted the last slap left her ears ringing and pussy exploding all over my dick. That almost freaked me out, but I sure did cum deep into her pussy! What a bunch of fucking freaks! ha ha ha.
My ex......need to get over that lying piece of crap. To this day she lies to me and unbeknown to her , I know! We had wild drawn out bouts of sex and what she started to crave was quickies! Sex started to become too much and she would tell me if we couldn't do it in 10 - 15 minutes then we can't do it tonight...she was too tired. =( Maybe this is all the better for us. I started to feel unwanted. I wanted her and loved her more than anything but what do you do when you lay in bed and she turns her back to you? There were no more deep kisses, no falling asleep in each other's arms. Then she tells me I drove her away, drove her to cheat! Now that I have been ignoring her and getting her out of my mind she is trying to come back. Says she can't get fucked like she used to. She never wanted it when we were married and now she wants my attention again. I refuse to let her back into my life. Sex would be great but I am afraid of my feelings for her may come back..........well they are still there.
posted by ADIDAS at 9:12 PM
1 Comments:
that thrill of wanting someting that you should not or can not have is very alluring. being rational is key before getting caught "in that moment".
i think most of us have two sides. what goes on behind closed doors can be shocking to some.
btw, i loved your description of the choking. got my wheels turning this morning, now i am hungry to fuck.
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